So what if God exists... I need proof

So what if God exists? What difference does that make? We all want to be certain, we all want proof, but the kind of proof that we tend to want -- scientifically or philosophically demonstrable proof that would silence all doubts once and for all -- would not in the long run, I think, answer the fearful depths of our need at all. For what we need to know, of course, is not just that God exists, not just that beyond the steely brightness of the stars there is a cosmic intelligence of some kind that keeps the whole show going, but that there is a God right here the thick of our day-by-day lives who may not be writing messages about himself in the stars, but who in one way or another is trying to get messages through our blindness as we move around here knee-deep in the fragrant muck and misery and marvel of the world. It is not objective proof of God's existence that we want but, whether we use religious language for it or not, the experience of God's presence. that is the miracle that we are really after. And that is also, I think, the miracle that we really get.

-- Frederick Buechner, The Magnificent Defeat